(Jacob’s Diary) My Wedding

November 13, 2010

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Dear Diary,

This is it. It’s finally here. The day that I marry Renesmee has finally arrived.

Surprisingly, I wasn’t kept up all night with that jittery excitement that normally keeps me up; only a few hours of nervousness before I forced my thoughts to shut up.

When I woke up it was seven, which meant I had to be at the Cullens’ house in thirty minutes. It took a few times to choose, but Ness and I finally chose to have the wedding in the pond sixty yards away from their house, surrounded by trees and flowers. So, that meant we would all get ready there. The wedding would be around noon, so the sun would shine through the trees, making it look very…angelic.

I had a hanger with my tuxedo in it, zipped up in a protective bag, because Alice says: “Even if it’s Armani, it doesn’t need to get dirty!” I grabbed the overnight bag with my shoes, hair products, shaving kit and other necessities in it. I would just do everything over there because I wanted to spend some time with my dad before we left for the Cullens’. He came to stay with me for the wedding and he got here a couple days ago, so I’ve spent as much time with him as possible.

When I walked into the kitchen, I laid my bag and tux on the kitchen table then made myself a glass of milk.

“Are you nervous yet?” I heard my dad’s gruff voice from behind me. I barked a laugh.

“I’ve been nervous since the moment I decided I was going to propose!” I said, and dad laughed.

“Ah, son. You’ll be okay,” He replied, rolling up so he could clap me on the back.

My dad and I ate breakfast and when we finished, it was time to go. So I grabbed my tux and my bag then wheeled my dad out to my car. Once I got my dad in and my stuff situated, I got in and started the car with jittery hands. Aw, hell.

I’m getting married.

When we arrived, Esme rushed out of the house.

“Jake! Billy! Hey!” She said, grabbing my bag and tux as she helped my dad get in the chair.

“Hey, Esme. Naw, stop, I can get this,” I said, trying to get my bag myself. She rolled her eyes and smiled.

“Stop being silly, Jake,” Esme said softly, wheeling my dad up the little walk that lead to their front door. I sighed, and followed behind her. No use in fighting her maternal nature.

I walked in the house, and looked around, scanned the house. Esme decorated the place with white drapes and twinkle lights. It smelled like lime and some kind of sweet flower, too. It felt homey, and looked amazing. Esme obviously works magic.

There were snacks on crystal plates laid out, obviously for the pack. They wouldn’t be here for a little while though, so I grabbed a chocolate oatmeal cookie and stuffed it down my throat, hardly tasting it.

My dad went into the living room to watch the game because he wasn’t going to have to do much to get ready. Lucky.

I picked up my bags then stocked off to the big downstairs bathroom because I was positive all the others would be occupied. I showered the night before, but I still took a real long one to make sure I smelled good. Once I dried off, I pulled on my slacks and my white t-shirt. I kinda sat there for a few minutes because I was getting jittery again, so I wanted to calm myself down. Taking a deep breath, I held it for ten seconds, and then slowly exhaled. When my body felt relaxed, I got up from the side of the bathtub, before pulling out my toothbrush and toothpaste, then brushed my teeth vigorously. Esme had a new toothbrush – along with other necessities – already in Aspen, and my car had both of our luggage in it already. Esme and Rosalie were decorating my car as soon as me and my dad got in. They were going to cover it in window paint and expensive ribbons. As long as they put ‘JUST MARRIED’ on the back, I would be fine.

My hair was almost dry so I got a glob of hair gel and styled my hair the normal way I do, but a bit neater. When I was satisfied, I shaved with my high tech razor that I got for my Birthday last year. Once my face was smooth, I inspected my reflection. I looked good, as always, so I left the bathroom for a minute to eat something. When I made it to the kitchen, the pack was hanging out around the island, eating the cookies.

“Hey Jakey boy!” Embry yelled, and all the guys started yelling and getting rowdy. I grinned, and walked over to them.

“Cheers to Jake not going to be single anymore!” Jared shouted, and all the guys cheered and toasted their root beers. I rolled my eyes.

“Gee, thanks guys,” I said sarcastically.

Once they settled down, I took a seat on one of the bar stools, and ate a cookie.

“Man, nobody will be patrolling during the ceremony,” Paul said, and Jared nodded in agreement.

“Yeah, but I think it’ll be okay, nothing’s been going on lately,” Embry added, and I nodded. It was true. Things had gotten kinda boring.

“It should all be good,” I said, and that ended that conversation. I talked with the guys for a while, and then I saw Alice for the first time today.

“Hey Ali!” I said, and she hugged me, her tiny frame feeling like an ice cube.

“Jake! Hey! You’re not ready. Wait, it’s not time yet, so never mind. Anyhoo, everything’s going as planned, so by eleven fifteen you have to be ready to go, okay? I’m off, Bye!” She rushed the words out in one breath, and then ran back up the stairs.

Alice was the maid of honor, so she would have to get Ness ready and herself, of course. I glanced at the time and I saw it was ten forty-five. I tensed up when I realized that it was so close. Soon, I would be married to Ness. Holy shit, I thought.

When my fit of nervousness subsided I went back to the bathroom and made sure my hair and face were still intact. When I saw that everything was good I pulled on my crisp, white dress shirt. I buttoned it carefully and put my bow tie on. Once I had straightened it, I pushed my arms through the sleeves of my expensive jacket. It was way too pricey for me, but considering it was my wedding day, I wanted it to be the best it could be.

I  buttoned the jacket and glanced at my reflection. I looked real good. I grinned and pulled on my really shiny dress shoes then fastened on my Dad’s old watch. I took another deep breath. Then another. It’s happening.

By the time I made myself leave the bathroom, it was eleven fifteen. Alice was standing there waiting for me in her black bridesmaid dress. It was simple and black with a satin gold sash around her waist, tied in a bow on the side.

“Okay! You’re ready!” She said excitedly, taking my hand and leading me into the living room. Bella stood there in her black lacy ‘Matron of Honor’ dress. Edward stood there too, in a tailored tuxedo, along with Carlisle, Rosalie, Emmett, and Jasper.

Rose was going to play the piano, while Edward walked Renesmee down the aisle. They were all talking… mostly to me, telling me how excited they were. The women’s eyes got glassy with tears that wouldn’t fall, and emotions floated around. My sister Rachel was there with Paul, and my sister Rebecca even flew in from Hawaii.

My best man was Embry, and Quil too, but Embry was going to stand in the best man spot. Sam would also be a groomsman and Ness chose Alice as her maid of honor. Emily, and Claire were bridesmaids.

We all talked for a little while in the living room before we migrated out to the pond. Alice and Emmett put a flat bridge down yesterday. It was made of a dark wood that crossed across the pond. It was the aisle; the aisle Ness would be walking down to become my wife.

The chairs were in rows and the aisle went from the beginning of the chairs to the end of the bridge. At the end of the bridge there was an arch made of black wrought iron, and white, gold, and black flowers intertwined with the iron. There were flower arrangements beside each side of the arch, and up the aisle.

My sister Rebecca’s daughter, Lena, would be the flower girl, and even though it was my first time meeting her in person, I loved the three year old nonetheless. Her flower girl dress was a white sparkly poof I could see that she was so excited to throw flower petals down the aisle. She had been practicing since we chose her to be the flower girl. She got her little basket ready, and Bella came outside. She had been upstairs talking with Renesmee and now she was telling everyone it was time for the ceremony to start.

It was then when I noticed that every seat was filled with familiar faces, and so I hurried to my designated spot across the bridge. My dad came across the bridge right after; he would be the person to wed me and Nessie. He got his license to wed online a week ago. Yeah, ghetto, I know, but it’s because when he would wed the people in the La Push tribe, it was a different kind of ceremony and required a different kind of license.

“You ready?” He asked.

I nodded happily. “More than ever,” I told him, looking him straight in the eyes. Rosalie walked over to the black grand piano. I swallowed, and saw Alice walk down the aisle with Embry after the bridal march started. Following them was Quil and Claire, and then Sam and Emily. I took a deep breath when I saw Lena, throwing petals, and behind her, was Renesmee.

Her arm was linked to Edward’s, but all I could see was her. Her hair was down and softly curled. She was wearing minimal makeup as far as I could tell, because her veil was shadowing her face a little. Her dress was a princess dress with crystals beading the top and bottom and it was tied back with a corset. The neckline made a soft ‘m’ and the fabric was intricately crisscrossed. The bottom was huge and was made of choppy tulle, and sparkled. Her lips were smiling and I grinned wider, mirroring her beautiful smile. She and Edward made their way across the bridge and Edward lifted her veil, revealing her luminous, perfect, smiling face. I swallowed hard again, and Edward placed Renesmee’s hand in mine before winking at me.

“Take care of her, Jake,” he whispered, and Ness rolled her eyes. I smiled at him and he sped back to his chair beside Bella. Her eyes were glassy, big surprise. My dad read all the traditional vows, and Ness and I both repeated them to each other, her with tears, and me with heavy emotion evident in my voice, and surely my expression.

When Billy was talking, I would whisper to Ness.“I love you so much,” I whispered. She smiled crookedly.

“I love you too,” she replied, and then Billy asked me that one question.

“Do you, Jacob Black, take Renesmee Cullen to be your lawfully wedded wife?”

I took a deep breath. “I do,” I said, trying not to let tears trickle down and make me look like a wimp. Billy smiled and so did Ness.

“Renesmee Cullen, do you take Jacob Black to be your lawfully wedded husband?” He asked.

“I do,” answered, tears sliding down her cheeks and smile lighting up her face. I heard no hesitation in her voice (thankfully) and Billy grinned cheekily. I slid my mother’s ring on her finger and she slid the gold band encrusted with diamonds – she picked out for me – on mine.

“I now pronounce you husband and wife. You may kiss the bride,” Billy said, his voice ringing loudly around the pond. I looked at Ness and cradled her face in my hands and she held my neck with one hand, pushing images of happiness in my mind. I kissed her softly, feeling her delicate lips and tasting her pomegranate tasting skin. Sealing the contract of marriage, with one touch of the lips.

I pulled away, realizing it wouldn’t be right to kiss too long in front of everyone. She grinned widely at me and I grabbed her hand. Lifting our intertwined hands above my head, I turned around to see everyone clapping and the pack and Emmett whooping. Bella was dry sobbing and Edward was smiling, his eyes also glassy.

“Congratulations!” Edward said, clapping me on the back. Bella was sobbing into Ness’s shoulder and telling her how beautiful she was.

Once everyone calmed down for the most part, we all moved toward the reception area a couple hundred yards away. It was a giant tent with white drapes hung from the top and twinkle lights. The tables were dark wood with gold tablecloths and red rose arrangements. Trees surrounded the outside making very wicked-awesome scenery. There was a checkered dance floor with multicolored lights making it bright and mesmerizing. But, since it was our first dance they used a regular reflective disco ball.

I had practiced dancing for weeks now, so I took Nessie’s hand and led her to the dance floor. She glided slowly, her dress making her look even more graceful than she already was. We got in position when the beginning of our wedding song started. We chose “True” by Ryan Cabrera. We made the graceful circles to the chords of the romantic song and I surprised myself by not tripping over my own big feet. Ness was pushing images into my head, but I halfway ignored them and settled for looking into her eyes. Her face was flushed and glowing. Her eyes were sparkling. I leaned down and pressed my lips to hers, but had to pull away to prevent myself from falling over. Nessie leaned closer, her eyes still locked with mine and then there was the flash of a camera.

“We’re really married,” I whispered to her, and she half-laughed. Another camera flash.

“I know, I can’t believe it either,” she said, resting her head against my chest. She looked content, happy.

We danced until the song ended, and then she kissed me on my chin so softly, letting it linger for longer than usual.

“I would now like to ask the father of the bride to join his daughter for a dance,” Alice said into the microphone that was hooked up to the DJ station. Edward walked to the floor and I walked off then stood next to Bella. Edward kissed Ness’s cheek and they started dancing to the song “Butterfly Kisses” by Bob Carlisle. They were whispering softly to each other, smiling and laughing.

The song was one of the sweetest songs I’d ever heard and Nessie started crying again and clung to Edward like her life depended on it. The bond Renesmee shares with Edward is evident and I’m glad that she has such a good father. When I thought that, Edward looked over and smiled at me and I knew that we were finally cool with each other.

When the song ended, Nessie came back over to me and hugged me. I hugged her back then Bella started dry-crying again. I pulled her towards both of us and I hugged Bella into me and Ness.

“I love you guys so much, and I’m so happy for you! You’re married! MARRIED!” She sobbed. Ness smiled, her cheeks turning a brighter shade of pink, then she whispered, “I’m so happy” before bringing Bella back into the hug position. “I love you, mommy.” Bella sobbed again.

I went to go hug my dad and everyone was smiling because Carrie Underwood’s “Mama’s Song” came on and Bella and Ness were hugging/dancing on the dance floor, while Esme brought out the huge cake.  It was white with a black trim on each tier, with golden roses made of icing dotting the cake. It was called a checkerboard cake. On the inside, it was white and chocolate cake, lined so that when you cut it, it makes a checkerboard pattern. Between every layer there was chocolate mousse.It was the nicest cake I’d ever seen.

When the song ended, Ness came back and so did Bells, so we could cut the cake. I got a bite sized piece for Ness and then I handed her one. We stuffed it in each other’s faces and laughed at the leftover icing on the rims of our lips. Cameras flashed again.We interlocked arms and took a sip of champagne with our arms locked. When all the cake was gone, we danced more to numerous romance songs like: “Amazed” by Lonestar & “Iris” by the Goo Goo Dolls.

The wedding went perfectly, just as planned. After two hours of dancing, Alice dragged Nessie away to go get dressed in her ‘going away’ outfit. I conversed with all the guests while she was gone.Each one congratulated me, and I felt so proud. More proud than I’d ever felt in my life. Renesmee was the most beautiful girl in the world, and she was my wife.

I don’t see why I was so nervous, though. Everything went perfectly and I married my soulmate. I feel so happy and excited, but still a little nervous about the honeymoon. If it’s half as good as the wedding, though, then I’ll be a happy camper.

When Renesmee came back, she wore a peach pink dress with a black flower belt on the waist with a white shrug, some black ruffly heels, and a black leather carry-on bag. I put my arm around her shoulders and we said goodbye to everyone. Everyone had sweet things to say and wished us the best, congratulating us some more. I’d never said ‘thank you’ so much in my life.

“I love you guys so much, and have a great honeymoon,” Bella said, still glassy eyed, still so proud.

“Have fun. I love you guys,” Edward said, grasping Bella’s hand tightly. With a tight feeling in my chest, I hugged both of them strongly, along with everyone else there, especially Alice for putting this all together.

“Thanks, Ali. I love you,” I said, after telling her how much I appreciated her hard work. She just smiled and hugged me and Ness goodbye.

When we walked out the front door, the guests lined the way to my car and threw flower petals at us. The pack threw a very large amount, which was to be expected. We made it to my car, which Jasper had pulled to the curb, and we both got in, trying to avoid slipping on the fresh, wet flower petals.

We slowly drove away, honking and yelling our love at everyone out of the windows. My car was covered in white and red window paint, and streamers. ‘JUST MARRIED’ was written across my back window big and proud, just how I wanted it.

And now, I’m sitting on the flight with Ness to Aspen. She’s asleep, so it gave me time to write. We’re going to land in an hour or so and I think I’ll wake her in a few minutes.

I am now a married man. Renesmee is my wife. My everything.

I’m going to go now, but thanks for reading, especially about the most important day of my life.

- Jacob

AHHHHH! Did you guys like it? Hate it? I hope I didn’t make the wedding something you didn’t imagine! Lol! BUT, We finally made it! Are you ready for the honeymoon?! I sure hope so! I literally cried while writing this, and I wanted you guys to know how much I love you. XOXO


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