(Jacob’s Diary) The Honeymoon Part II

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Dear Diary,

As I said in my last entry, my honeymoon has been pretty awesome. Even though there was no planning involved, everything fell into place perfectly.

Today, I woke up with Ness cradled in my arms and tangled sheets around the both of us.

I wrote my last entry real quick then decided to go make my wife breakfast.

I decided that, regardless of how alone and isolated it is out here, it would still be a good idea to not walk around naked, so I pulled some pajama pants on before softly padding to the kitchen.

When Rosalie was here to prepare the cabin, she put non-perishable foods in the cabinets, but the cleaning crew that came once every two weeks would stock the fridge with eggs, milk and other stuff that had a ridiculously short life span in the expiration date world.

I grabbed the carton of eggs and cracked twelve on the side of a big bowl I found in one of the numerous cabinets. I got a whisk and started stirring them, adding a bit a milk to make ’em nice and fluffy. I got some pre-cooked bacon, stuck it in a pan and then put the eggs on – considering the bacon wouldn’t take too long and Ness doesn’t like bacon crispy.

It took about ten minutes before I was walking into the bedroom with a tray of breakfast for Ness and I. I placed two plates on the tray: one with a portion of eggs and a portion of bacon, the other had about six portions of each. It’s obvious which plate was mine.

I carried it in and placed it on my side of the king sized bed carefully then went to sit her glass of orange juice on the nightstand. I know she would’ve preferred blood, but the cabin doesn’t exactly keep that around.

Ness would probably go hunting later, in the evening. For the day we’d planned to go skiing and then Ness wanted to go to this place that would let you make your own apple cider that she’d read about online.

When I sat the glass of orange juice down lightly, Renesmee’s eyelids fluttered open.

“Good morning,” she said, smiling sleepily at me. I smiled back at her and she yawned.

“You made breakfast,” she said, looking at me through groggy eyes.

“Yeah, not that extravagant…I’m not the best chef,” I told her, shrugging. She rolled her eyes.

Ness kissed my cheek and sat up, wrapping the sheets around her body. “It’s perfect, Jacob.”

We ate and talked then when we finished, I put all of our dishes and trash on the tray. I took it back into the kitchen and when I got back, Ness was standing beside the bed stretching, her bare body glowing from the sun peeking in the windows. I gulped and averted my gaze to the floor. Which, I know sounds stupid, but I didn’t want her to feel like I was just watching her, gawking.

“Do you want to take a shower?” she asked, and I looked up at her.

She was grinning mischievously and I grinned back, matching the mischievousness of her grin.

“Hell yeah,” I said and she giggled, walking over to me.

“I mean if you wa–want to take one by yourself that’s fine too,” I said, while  nervousness boiled in my blood.

“Um, well considering that last night was great and the fact that we’re married, yes, I want to take a shower with you Jake.” She ran a hand through my hair, and kissed me as light as she possibly could before running away to the bathroom.

I stood there for a minute before it got through my thick head to follow her.

When I did, she was already in the shower, so I took off my pajama pants and boxers then opened the glass door of the shower.

Ness was smiling at me while the water steamed around her and obviously that was a good sight to see. A beautiful sight.

By the time I stepped in, I had a sensory overload and Ness’s smooth skin was pressed against me, her wet soft hair dripping water droplets on the hand I had on her lower back.

There was one of those expensive shower heads in the shower and it was spraying really smooth water, so it was like kissing under a small, warm waterfall.

Ness was ran her hands up and down my back like she was trying to memorize every inch of me.

“I love you,” I whispered into her neck while I caressed her waist and hips. She pushed her self on me slowly and we both took in the feeling, the real thing felt so much better than when I was imagining it before.

It refreshed my memory on the overall beauty of it and I was seeing stars, the pure ecstasy that overcame me. The steam clouded in the shower and the water poured warmly down on us as I kissed her jaw bone, breathing sighs.

I don’t feel like a scumbag like I thought I would either, because to me, we’re not just having sex, we’re making love. It means something to both of us and it lets us be intimate with each other. To please one another.

Ness and I are married now, so it isn’t wrong to feel this way, or make love. I’ve faced that fact a while ago. She’s not a kid anymore. She’s a woman.

I washed my hair, and she washed hers too, before we stepped out of the shower.

I grabbed two of the plush towels off of the towel rack and handed one to Nessie.

I towel dried my hair and wrapped the towel around my waist then brushed my teeth and then left so Ness could have some privacy.

Once I got on the ski pants and jacket, I knew Ness would be done soon so I put on the black beanie – that matched my black and gray coat – along with the black ski pants Alice bought me. I put the goggles on my head over my beanie, so I wouldn’t have to carry them.

When Ness came out of the bathroom she was wearing a white coat and white ski pants with matching boots. Of course she looked fashionable, even though we were only going skiing. White goggles with a black lens were propped on her head like mine and she was grinning excitedly.

“Ready?” She asked and I hopped up off the bed.

“No, I‘m just dressed and waiting for no reason,” I said sarcastically and she laughed. “How come I didn’t get the memo that we’re supposed to look all stylish?”

“Silly, you look fine. Alice picked out your clothes, so I wouldn’t worry,” she assured me, kissing my cheek. “Also, Alice said the skis are in the garage, but there’s also a snowboard because, though she didn’t have a vision, she knew you would think skiing is too sissy.”

I laughed, and nodded. “I love how she can’t see me, but she knows me well enough to guess I would rather snowboard.”

Ness shook her head and the bronze curls sticking out from under her goggles shook too.

“We’re not going to have an instructor are we?” I asked, grabbing a pair of pink skis and a snowboard that had some random black and white designs on it. I gave her the skis and she pulled a piece of paper out of her black hole, I mean her purse.

“No, Alice knows you too well there also; she knew that there was a high chance of getting a male instructor and knew you would probably get jealous. So, she found a small private set of slopes that’s kinda like Aspen’s version of a country club. There won’t be many people at all there because it’s off season, but they’ll have fake snow if there isn’t enough real snow.”

I nodded, liking the idea of privacy. “Okay, let’s plow,” I quoted Duckie from the movie ‘Pretty in Pink,’ because it seemed fitting for our location.

Ness laughed and I lifted the trunk of the car before I put my snowboard in. Once Ness sat her skis down, I closed the trunk, and we both got in the car. Ness buckled her seat belt then I started the car, turning the heat on high for Nessie’s sake.

She told me the directions and we made it there in under fifteen minutes. There was a humongous cabin that had a million windows and a sign the said “Mountains of Aspen Ski Resort.” There was a wrought-iron gate surrounding the front so I drove up to the guardsman.

“Hey, I’m Jacob Black. I think I have reservations here for a day of skiing?” I said, making it sound like a question. The security guy looked bored and typed a few things in his computer before nodding at me.

“Go ahead, sir,” He said, pressing the button that opened the gate. I drove the car into the parking lot and parked in one of the many open spaces.

“There’s only about five cars here,” I said.

“Yeah, I told you it was pretty slow on off-season,” Ness reminded me.

“Well, at least we won’t embarrass ourselves in front of a crowd of people.”

After we grabbed the skis and snowboard, we walked inside the lodge and it was very nice, to say the least.

Of course Alice would choose the nicest place for us to go skiing. Of course.

After we took in the visual of the lobby, we agreed it was really awesome. There was a giant fireplace and the stones around it went all the way up to the ceiling with sky–light windows surrounding it.

There were plush couches and rugs, and even a counter where they would serve you hot chocolate or coffee – or whatever the hell you wanted I guess. When you live the high life, I guess you can make them serve you piss in a cup for all I know.

Ness went and sat our stuff on one of the couches because nobody else was down there besides the guy who gives out hot chocolate, so it wasn’t like they were bothering anybody.

We got hot chocolates with marshmallows, and when we were finished we went out the back door that lead to the slopes.

When we finally got there, we decided to go on the beginner’s slope… I’d never done this before; I didn’t want to risk being cocky and going on the expert slope – which would’ve caused me to break my neck.

Ness changed into those bulky ski shoes and hooked them to her skis while I hooked mine to my snowboard.

I struggled to get up but when I finally did, I pulled Ness up too. I kissed her cheek and sort of hopped over to the beginning of the slope.

Ness stood to the right of me and I tried to remember how I snowboarded on the Wii once. I figured it’d be somewhat similar.

I leaned to the side slightly then pushed off and Ness started skiing beside me.

She’s skied a few times before and made it look graceful, while I was flapping my arms all over the place trying to stay upright.

Ness wasn’t laughing at me, though, she was laughing with me because I couldn’t stop laughing my head off every time I fell on my ass.

We stayed on the slopes for about an hour and a half before we got exhausted and made our way back to the lodge, the outer layer of our ski clothes wet from melted snow and both of our noses and cheeks a bright red.

We went inside then got more hot chocolate and stayed another fifteen minutes before heading out to the place that would let us make our own apple cider.

The ride there wasn’t long either. When we got there, it was a building shaped like a barn, but there was a parking lot with cars in it, so obviously it wasn’t a barn.

I parked and Ness and I went in, both a little curious about the barn–looking exterior.

The inside was nice and warm with a fireplace burning and barrels of apples on one side. The other side had all sorts of machines.

“Hi! Can I help you?” A high pitched voice sounded and I looked to see a tall teenager with frizzy black hair.

“Um, hey. I heard that we could make our own apple cider here?” I said, gesturing to the families around the barrels and machines.

“Yes! You can! For now, go pick out a dozen apples of your choice!” She said, and Ness gave me a little excited smile.

We went to pick out our apples. We were searching for some good apples when Ness laughed.

“That girl is in love with you,” she said, and I looked at her in confusion.

“What? Naw.”

I looked over at the girl and she was staring at me from her register, biting her lip. When she saw me looking her face turned an unattractive red shade and she looked down at the floor.

“Well, obviously I’m married, Mrs. Black,” I said to Ness, kissing her softly.

Nessie grinned and once we found the apples, the over-eager worker took us to a purée machine.

She sat the apples in the machine and puréed them, giving us the giant metal bowl that had the apple mush in it. She took us over to a table and told us to dump them on this piece of cloth then tie the ends around the apple mush and squeeze out the juice.

Ness squeezed it and peals of laughter came out when the juice fell into the bowl. Ness gave it to me so I could squeeze out the remaining juice and the girl sat down some spices and a wooden spoon.

Once we finished putting spices in it, the girl said it had to refrigerate for an hour before we could drink it.

We didn’t want to just stand there, and since there was a store upstairs, Ness and I went up and looked around for the next hour. We bought caramel apples, candy apples, organic apple scented lotion and, as a joke, I got the whole pack a box of apple dog treats.

When we were done, we went downstairs to get our cider and it was in a plastic gallon jug, with a label that said ‘BLACK’ on it.

I paid for all of our stuff and the cider and Ness and I left. We were tired and eager to relax.

I drove the way back to the cabin then Ness and I ate dinner.

Now I’m writing in my diary again. This will probably be the last time I write in here until after our honeymoon because I plan on enjoying it. But for now, Ness is calling me to bed. I’ll write in here again soon.

- Jacob

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(Jacob’s Diary) The Honeymoon Part I

Dear Diary,

This honeymoon has been nothing short of amazing. In fact, it’s a bajillion times the definition of ‘amazing.’ The flight there wasn’t too long, but Ness slept the whole way there, so I had a lot of time to think. I’m so anxious. It must’ve sounded nerdy for ‘Big and Bad’ Jake to be a virgin, but I waited for her, and now…well, the wait’s over.

The whole flight I was fidgeting, my mind crossing off everything that was going on.

1. I’m married.

2. I’m married to Renesmee.

3. I’m going on my honeymoon.

I know I sound like a horny teenager, but I had waited for that one thing since the day she grew out of childhood. I just didn’t want it to be awkward. That would’ve just ruined everything. But, you know, it went perfect.

The flight landed, and we bustled out of the terminal to get our luggage; both of us knew without saying a word that we were anxious to get to the cabin. Alice helped Ness pack her bags, so I was surprised that there were only two, not including her carry-on bag. I put them on a rolly-cart thing – and put mine on there to – before we walked out of the airport.

Alice said she had a rental car in the parking lot and gave us the parking deck’s number and the number of it’s space. Ness pulled the paper with the info out of her carry-on and we rushed to get to the parking deck, which was out of the snow.

I wrapped my arm around Renesmee’s shoulders and we went up to the second floor of the deck. It was the third car in the first rows of cars and we rolled the cart-thingy over to it. It was a white Nissan 350z. Not that recent, but really bad ass. I piled our bags in the trunk with ease and went to open the door for Ness. Once she got in, I ran the cart over to the little spot they’re supposed to go in, and once I was back in the car, I started the engine in one swift turn of the key. Even though I hadn’t had to drive the Rabbit in years, it’s still kinda weird not having to rev the engine multiple times and hearing a hum – instead of a loud rumble – was strange, but in a good way.

I pulled out of the space and then out of the parking deck. Thankfully Alice programmed the directions to the cabin in the GPS, so I just followed the little robotic voice for twenty-five minutes until it lead me to a small, winding road surrounded by snow and evergreen trees. A lot like the roads for every house the Cullens’ ever had owned. Private and difficult to get to… for a human with dull senses, of course.

The road led to a extravagant (duh) cabin, that had a perfect view of the mountains. There was at least a foot of snow and it was still snowing, dropping down in bucket-loads. The cabin started at the top floor and the back of it was off the side of the mountain on stilts, so there was a bottom floor too. It was all alone and the cabin was intricately built, but cozy at the same time.

I grabbed all of our bags form the trunk and we made our way towards the front door, both of our heads down trying to keep the snow out of our eyes. We got under the sheltered part where the front door was and I got the key out of the little hiding place under the welcome mat. (Real obvious for such clever people). Though, I didn’t expect anybody really finding the place that easily anyway.

I unlocked the door easily and Ness walked in first as I followed close behind. She went and turned on all the lights and I took our bags to the master bedroom. The living room was amazing, it had multiple modern looking grey couches with orange throw pillows. There was a huge window and fashionable light fixtures. The walls were really indescribable, so many shapes at once, with all the archways and the fireplace changing the walls from flat into an architect’s dream. The kitchen was awesome, too. It had stone walls and old-timey looking cabinets. It even had one of those floating microwaves… the ones that are in between the cabinets and pretty much just sit in the air because there’s nothing below it.

I walked through the wooden-wall hallway, and towards the master bedroom.

When I walked in, I took in the huge king-sized bed, dome indented wall, and the intricate mural on the wall. It was amazing. Perfect.

I sat our bags down then walked back through the hallway and into the living room. Ness wasn’t there, so I went into the kitchen and saw the laundry room door open. She was in there, turning the knob for the main water shut off, which was a good idea considering I’d have to flush the toilet at some point. There was a Jacuzzi tub in the bathroom, too…

Nessie saw me, finished twisting the knob and walked over, rubbing her hands on her pink dress and smiling.

“I’m going to go change, okay?” she said, trying to sound calm. I kissed her before she left, feeling a bit nervous myself.

“Okay,” I said, and she went down the hallway. I took a shaky breath. The time had finally come. Breathe in, breathe out, I told myself.

I went to the kitchen, gulped down a glass of water and walked down the hallway towards the bedroom. The bathroom light was on, but the door was closed. One of Ness’s suitcases was in the bathroom with her and I heard faint noises of rustling clothes. I sighed and stripped down to my boxers before I got in the bed under the fresh sheets. I put my arms behind my head and I waited for Ness to come out of the bathroom, staring at the ceiling but not actually seeing it.

I focused on breathing and two minutes later…she walked out in lingerie. Some white lacy thing that accented her chest. Her boobs. It went down to the top of her thighs and it was see-through enough for me to see lacy white panties underneath. Her fair skin glowed and she had a sweet smile on her face as she walked towards the bed. My jaw was slack as she glided on the bed and soon, she was grinning at me on her hands and knees.

Before I realized it, I was attacking her mouth and pulling her on top of me. I rubbed my hands up and down around her waist, our mouths attached the entire time. The little bow on her outfit was teasing me, so I pulled both of the straps down slowly, pulling away from our kiss to see if it was okay. She nodded, her face flushed and her pupils dilated. I slowly pulled them down, caressing her arms with the back of my hands. She closed her eyes and I took in the sight in front of me. The glorious sight of my wife, Ness’.

I held a growl back and mashed her mouth to mine again, relishing in the feeling of our collided tongues. We moaned simultaneously and I grabbed her breasts softly, playing with them, defining their curves with my hands.

“Renesmee,” I whispered in her mouth, and she breathed a sigh.

She pulled away to completely take off the nightie and pulled the covers off of me.

“Your turn,” she breathed, her voice very seductive. I took off my boxers, not embarrassed at all. She looked for a minute and turned back to me, kissing me again. She took her hands from my shoulders for a second so she could pull off her underwear and before I knew it, we were connected.

The feeling of euphoria clouded my vision and she moaned, her fingers rubbing my shoulders then my stomach. I grappled her, and making her move, to get friction.

“Does it-t hurt?” I asked, and she shook her head no and somehow even that simple gesture looked seductive.

“No, it feels amazing, now can we start moving?!” she asked, and I acted as soon as the words left her pouty, pink, supple lips.

My hands were around her hips and she was moving on me, causing the foreign feeling to intensify. She was moaning and I was groaning, numerous interesting sounds leaving our mouths. My hands moved up towards her chest and I got so overpowered with the feeling, I flipped us over so I was on top of her. I pushed again and we both exhaled in gasps. I got a feeling in the pit of my stomach, an intense feeling.

Our movements became frantic, like we were trying to touch every inch of each others’ bodies as fast as we possibly could and I gasped then clenched my jaw. Stars flooded in my eyes and I yelled out in ecstasy. I heard her high pitched moan in response.

When we came down from the high, we laid there intertwined, deeply breathing. When I finally caught my breath, I heard her breathe a sigh.

“Wow,” she said, her voice light and airy, her skin glowing.

“Yeah,” I said, caressing her cheek with the back of my hand. We laid there for a long time, just staring at each other, kissing, and loving every moment of our bare skin touching. It felt so natural, so right.

It went better than I could ever have imagined and from what I could remember, she didn’t even feel pain the entire time. Just bliss.

I’m married to Renesmee. She is now Renesmee Black. She’s mine, and we’ve been tied in every way possible.

“I love you so much,” I told her, kissing the corner of her mouth, then trickling my lips over her entire body.

“I love you, too,” she said, snuggling closer to me as I kissed every inch of her glowy skin.

We fell asleep like that and I’d never slept sounder in my life.

When I woke up, I decided to document it in my diary like always, and now I have to sign off for now so I can make my wife some breakfast in bed.

- Jacob

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(Jacob’s Diary) My Wedding

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Dear Diary,

This is it. It’s finally here. The day that I marry Renesmee has finally arrived.

Surprisingly, I wasn’t kept up all night with that jittery excitement that normally keeps me up; only a few hours of nervousness before I forced my thoughts to shut up.

When I woke up it was seven, which meant I had to be at the Cullens’ house in thirty minutes. It took a few times to choose, but Ness and I finally chose to have the wedding in the pond sixty yards away from their house, surrounded by trees and flowers. So, that meant we would all get ready there. The wedding would be around noon, so the sun would shine through the trees, making it look very…angelic.

I had a hanger with my tuxedo in it, zipped up in a protective bag, because Alice says: “Even if it’s Armani, it doesn’t need to get dirty!” I grabbed the overnight bag with my shoes, hair products, shaving kit and other necessities in it. I would just do everything over there because I wanted to spend some time with my dad before we left for the Cullens’. He came to stay with me for the wedding and he got here a couple days ago, so I’ve spent as much time with him as possible.

When I walked into the kitchen, I laid my bag and tux on the kitchen table then made myself a glass of milk.

“Are you nervous yet?” I heard my dad’s gruff voice from behind me. I barked a laugh.

“I’ve been nervous since the moment I decided I was going to propose!” I said, and dad laughed.

“Ah, son. You’ll be okay,” He replied, rolling up so he could clap me on the back.

My dad and I ate breakfast and when we finished, it was time to go. So I grabbed my tux and my bag then wheeled my dad out to my car. Once I got my dad in and my stuff situated, I got in and started the car with jittery hands. Aw, hell.

I’m getting married.

When we arrived, Esme rushed out of the house.

“Jake! Billy! Hey!” She said, grabbing my bag and tux as she helped my dad get in the chair.

“Hey, Esme. Naw, stop, I can get this,” I said, trying to get my bag myself. She rolled her eyes and smiled.

“Stop being silly, Jake,” Esme said softly, wheeling my dad up the little walk that lead to their front door. I sighed, and followed behind her. No use in fighting her maternal nature.

I walked in the house, and looked around, scanned the house. Esme decorated the place with white drapes and twinkle lights. It smelled like lime and some kind of sweet flower, too. It felt homey, and looked amazing. Esme obviously works magic.

There were snacks on crystal plates laid out, obviously for the pack. They wouldn’t be here for a little while though, so I grabbed a chocolate oatmeal cookie and stuffed it down my throat, hardly tasting it.

My dad went into the living room to watch the game because he wasn’t going to have to do much to get ready. Lucky.

I picked up my bags then stocked off to the big downstairs bathroom because I was positive all the others would be occupied. I showered the night before, but I still took a real long one to make sure I smelled good. Once I dried off, I pulled on my slacks and my white t-shirt. I kinda sat there for a few minutes because I was getting jittery again, so I wanted to calm myself down. Taking a deep breath, I held it for ten seconds, and then slowly exhaled. When my body felt relaxed, I got up from the side of the bathtub, before pulling out my toothbrush and toothpaste, then brushed my teeth vigorously. Esme had a new toothbrush – along with other necessities – already in Aspen, and my car had both of our luggage in it already. Esme and Rosalie were decorating my car as soon as me and my dad got in. They were going to cover it in window paint and expensive ribbons. As long as they put ‘JUST MARRIED’ on the back, I would be fine.

My hair was almost dry so I got a glob of hair gel and styled my hair the normal way I do, but a bit neater. When I was satisfied, I shaved with my high tech razor that I got for my Birthday last year. Once my face was smooth, I inspected my reflection. I looked good, as always, so I left the bathroom for a minute to eat something. When I made it to the kitchen, the pack was hanging out around the island, eating the cookies.

“Hey Jakey boy!” Embry yelled, and all the guys started yelling and getting rowdy. I grinned, and walked over to them.

“Cheers to Jake not going to be single anymore!” Jared shouted, and all the guys cheered and toasted their root beers. I rolled my eyes.

“Gee, thanks guys,” I said sarcastically.

Once they settled down, I took a seat on one of the bar stools, and ate a cookie.

“Man, nobody will be patrolling during the ceremony,” Paul said, and Jared nodded in agreement.

“Yeah, but I think it’ll be okay, nothing’s been going on lately,” Embry added, and I nodded. It was true. Things had gotten kinda boring.

“It should all be good,” I said, and that ended that conversation. I talked with the guys for a while, and then I saw Alice for the first time today.

“Hey Ali!” I said, and she hugged me, her tiny frame feeling like an ice cube.

“Jake! Hey! You’re not ready. Wait, it’s not time yet, so never mind. Anyhoo, everything’s going as planned, so by eleven fifteen you have to be ready to go, okay? I’m off, Bye!” She rushed the words out in one breath, and then ran back up the stairs.

Alice was the maid of honor, so she would have to get Ness ready and herself, of course. I glanced at the time and I saw it was ten forty-five. I tensed up when I realized that it was so close. Soon, I would be married to Ness. Holy shit, I thought.

When my fit of nervousness subsided I went back to the bathroom and made sure my hair and face were still intact. When I saw that everything was good I pulled on my crisp, white dress shirt. I buttoned it carefully and put my bow tie on. Once I had straightened it, I pushed my arms through the sleeves of my expensive jacket. It was way too pricey for me, but considering it was my wedding day, I wanted it to be the best it could be.

I  buttoned the jacket and glanced at my reflection. I looked real good. I grinned and pulled on my really shiny dress shoes then fastened on my Dad’s old watch. I took another deep breath. Then another. It’s happening.

By the time I made myself leave the bathroom, it was eleven fifteen. Alice was standing there waiting for me in her black bridesmaid dress. It was simple and black with a satin gold sash around her waist, tied in a bow on the side.

“Okay! You’re ready!” She said excitedly, taking my hand and leading me into the living room. Bella stood there in her black lacy ‘Matron of Honor’ dress. Edward stood there too, in a tailored tuxedo, along with Carlisle, Rosalie, Emmett, and Jasper.

Rose was going to play the piano, while Edward walked Renesmee down the aisle. They were all talking… mostly to me, telling me how excited they were. The women’s eyes got glassy with tears that wouldn’t fall, and emotions floated around. My sister Rachel was there with Paul, and my sister Rebecca even flew in from Hawaii.

My best man was Embry, and Quil too, but Embry was going to stand in the best man spot. Sam would also be a groomsman and Ness chose Alice as her maid of honor. Emily, and Claire were bridesmaids.

We all talked for a little while in the living room before we migrated out to the pond. Alice and Emmett put a flat bridge down yesterday. It was made of a dark wood that crossed across the pond. It was the aisle; the aisle Ness would be walking down to become my wife.

The chairs were in rows and the aisle went from the beginning of the chairs to the end of the bridge. At the end of the bridge there was an arch made of black wrought iron, and white, gold, and black flowers intertwined with the iron. There were flower arrangements beside each side of the arch, and up the aisle.

My sister Rebecca’s daughter, Lena, would be the flower girl, and even though it was my first time meeting her in person, I loved the three year old nonetheless. Her flower girl dress was a white sparkly poof I could see that she was so excited to throw flower petals down the aisle. She had been practicing since we chose her to be the flower girl. She got her little basket ready, and Bella came outside. She had been upstairs talking with Renesmee and now she was telling everyone it was time for the ceremony to start.

It was then when I noticed that every seat was filled with familiar faces, and so I hurried to my designated spot across the bridge. My dad came across the bridge right after; he would be the person to wed me and Nessie. He got his license to wed online a week ago. Yeah, ghetto, I know, but it’s because when he would wed the people in the La Push tribe, it was a different kind of ceremony and required a different kind of license.

“You ready?” He asked.

I nodded happily. “More than ever,” I told him, looking him straight in the eyes. Rosalie walked over to the black grand piano. I swallowed, and saw Alice walk down the aisle with Embry after the bridal march started. Following them was Quil and Claire, and then Sam and Emily. I took a deep breath when I saw Lena, throwing petals, and behind her, was Renesmee.

Her arm was linked to Edward’s, but all I could see was her. Her hair was down and softly curled. She was wearing minimal makeup as far as I could tell, because her veil was shadowing her face a little. Her dress was a princess dress with crystals beading the top and bottom and it was tied back with a corset. The neckline made a soft ‘m’ and the fabric was intricately crisscrossed. The bottom was huge and was made of choppy tulle, and sparkled. Her lips were smiling and I grinned wider, mirroring her beautiful smile. She and Edward made their way across the bridge and Edward lifted her veil, revealing her luminous, perfect, smiling face. I swallowed hard again, and Edward placed Renesmee’s hand in mine before winking at me.

“Take care of her, Jake,” he whispered, and Ness rolled her eyes. I smiled at him and he sped back to his chair beside Bella. Her eyes were glassy, big surprise. My dad read all the traditional vows, and Ness and I both repeated them to each other, her with tears, and me with heavy emotion evident in my voice, and surely my expression.

When Billy was talking, I would whisper to Ness.“I love you so much,” I whispered. She smiled crookedly.

“I love you too,” she replied, and then Billy asked me that one question.

“Do you, Jacob Black, take Renesmee Cullen to be your lawfully wedded wife?”

I took a deep breath. “I do,” I said, trying not to let tears trickle down and make me look like a wimp. Billy smiled and so did Ness.

“Renesmee Cullen, do you take Jacob Black to be your lawfully wedded husband?” He asked.

“I do,” answered, tears sliding down her cheeks and smile lighting up her face. I heard no hesitation in her voice (thankfully) and Billy grinned cheekily. I slid my mother’s ring on her finger and she slid the gold band encrusted with diamonds – she picked out for me – on mine.

“I now pronounce you husband and wife. You may kiss the bride,” Billy said, his voice ringing loudly around the pond. I looked at Ness and cradled her face in my hands and she held my neck with one hand, pushing images of happiness in my mind. I kissed her softly, feeling her delicate lips and tasting her pomegranate tasting skin. Sealing the contract of marriage, with one touch of the lips.

I pulled away, realizing it wouldn’t be right to kiss too long in front of everyone. She grinned widely at me and I grabbed her hand. Lifting our intertwined hands above my head, I turned around to see everyone clapping and the pack and Emmett whooping. Bella was dry sobbing and Edward was smiling, his eyes also glassy.

“Congratulations!” Edward said, clapping me on the back. Bella was sobbing into Ness’s shoulder and telling her how beautiful she was.

Once everyone calmed down for the most part, we all moved toward the reception area a couple hundred yards away. It was a giant tent with white drapes hung from the top and twinkle lights. The tables were dark wood with gold tablecloths and red rose arrangements. Trees surrounded the outside making very wicked-awesome scenery. There was a checkered dance floor with multicolored lights making it bright and mesmerizing. But, since it was our first dance they used a regular reflective disco ball.

I had practiced dancing for weeks now, so I took Nessie’s hand and led her to the dance floor. She glided slowly, her dress making her look even more graceful than she already was. We got in position when the beginning of our wedding song started. We chose “True” by Ryan Cabrera. We made the graceful circles to the chords of the romantic song and I surprised myself by not tripping over my own big feet. Ness was pushing images into my head, but I halfway ignored them and settled for looking into her eyes. Her face was flushed and glowing. Her eyes were sparkling. I leaned down and pressed my lips to hers, but had to pull away to prevent myself from falling over. Nessie leaned closer, her eyes still locked with mine and then there was the flash of a camera.

“We’re really married,” I whispered to her, and she half-laughed. Another camera flash.

“I know, I can’t believe it either,” she said, resting her head against my chest. She looked content, happy.

We danced until the song ended, and then she kissed me on my chin so softly, letting it linger for longer than usual.

“I would now like to ask the father of the bride to join his daughter for a dance,” Alice said into the microphone that was hooked up to the DJ station. Edward walked to the floor and I walked off then stood next to Bella. Edward kissed Ness’s cheek and they started dancing to the song “Butterfly Kisses” by Bob Carlisle. They were whispering softly to each other, smiling and laughing.

The song was one of the sweetest songs I’d ever heard and Nessie started crying again and clung to Edward like her life depended on it. The bond Renesmee shares with Edward is evident and I’m glad that she has such a good father. When I thought that, Edward looked over and smiled at me and I knew that we were finally cool with each other.

When the song ended, Nessie came back over to me and hugged me. I hugged her back then Bella started dry-crying again. I pulled her towards both of us and I hugged Bella into me and Ness.

“I love you guys so much, and I’m so happy for you! You’re married! MARRIED!” She sobbed. Ness smiled, her cheeks turning a brighter shade of pink, then she whispered, “I’m so happy” before bringing Bella back into the hug position. “I love you, mommy.” Bella sobbed again.

I went to go hug my dad and everyone was smiling because Carrie Underwood’s “Mama’s Song” came on and Bella and Ness were hugging/dancing on the dance floor, while Esme brought out the huge cake.  It was white with a black trim on each tier, with golden roses made of icing dotting the cake. It was called a checkerboard cake. On the inside, it was white and chocolate cake, lined so that when you cut it, it makes a checkerboard pattern. Between every layer there was chocolate mousse.It was the nicest cake I’d ever seen.

When the song ended, Ness came back and so did Bells, so we could cut the cake. I got a bite sized piece for Ness and then I handed her one. We stuffed it in each other’s faces and laughed at the leftover icing on the rims of our lips. Cameras flashed again.We interlocked arms and took a sip of champagne with our arms locked. When all the cake was gone, we danced more to numerous romance songs like: “Amazed” by Lonestar & “Iris” by the Goo Goo Dolls.

The wedding went perfectly, just as planned. After two hours of dancing, Alice dragged Nessie away to go get dressed in her ‘going away’ outfit. I conversed with all the guests while she was gone.Each one congratulated me, and I felt so proud. More proud than I’d ever felt in my life. Renesmee was the most beautiful girl in the world, and she was my wife.

I don’t see why I was so nervous, though. Everything went perfectly and I married my soulmate. I feel so happy and excited, but still a little nervous about the honeymoon. If it’s half as good as the wedding, though, then I’ll be a happy camper.

When Renesmee came back, she wore a peach pink dress with a black flower belt on the waist with a white shrug, some black ruffly heels, and a black leather carry-on bag. I put my arm around her shoulders and we said goodbye to everyone. Everyone had sweet things to say and wished us the best, congratulating us some more. I’d never said ‘thank you’ so much in my life.

“I love you guys so much, and have a great honeymoon,” Bella said, still glassy eyed, still so proud.

“Have fun. I love you guys,” Edward said, grasping Bella’s hand tightly. With a tight feeling in my chest, I hugged both of them strongly, along with everyone else there, especially Alice for putting this all together.

“Thanks, Ali. I love you,” I said, after telling her how much I appreciated her hard work. She just smiled and hugged me and Ness goodbye.

When we walked out the front door, the guests lined the way to my car and threw flower petals at us. The pack threw a very large amount, which was to be expected. We made it to my car, which Jasper had pulled to the curb, and we both got in, trying to avoid slipping on the fresh, wet flower petals.

We slowly drove away, honking and yelling our love at everyone out of the windows. My car was covered in white and red window paint, and streamers. ‘JUST MARRIED’ was written across my back window big and proud, just how I wanted it.

And now, I’m sitting on the flight with Ness to Aspen. She’s asleep, so it gave me time to write. We’re going to land in an hour or so and I think I’ll wake her in a few minutes.

I am now a married man. Renesmee is my wife. My everything.

I’m going to go now, but thanks for reading, especially about the most important day of my life.

- Jacob

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(Jacob’s Diary) The Talk

Dear Diary,

Wedding plans were happening, wedding presents were coming and I’ve eaten every kind of cake in the world.

Thankfully, I was indecisive when it came to choosing the cake for the wedding. So, every different kind of cake known to man was right there, waiting for me to feast on.

A few days ago, Ness finally decided that she and Alice would design her dress themselves because she hasn’t been able to find the perfect dress. So, they’re holed up in Alice’s studio, and I’m eating cake. And lots of it.

Everything was happening all at once so my stress level had increased a bit. Not as bad as it was the night I proposed, though. I don’t think I had ever been that stressed.

Esme sent Rose and Emmett to go make sure the cabin in Aspen was ready for our honeymoon, which is nice because even though Rose and I have sorta made up, it’s really awkward around her regardless.

Yesterday I was eating red velvet cake, with white chocolate chips right in the cake. It was smothered in cream cheese icing and came all the way from Italy. Mmmm.

Anyway, Alice was running around and waiting for the delivery of the flowers. She ordered the flower arrangements with real cream colored flowers, which wouldn’t come until the wedding day – so they wouldn’t wilt – but she ordered special flowers to mix in with the cream colored ones. They were roses dipped in gold and metallic black paint …or something. She would stick them in with the cream colored ones so they’d dot the arrangement, bringing the colors together in a perfect pattern.

Obviously I’m not paying for this wedding, considering that the whole wedding will end up costing more than Hugh Hefner’s mansion is worth. I don’t necessarily want a humongo-jumbo wedding, but it’s what Ness wants, so I’m perfectly happy with it.

“Jake?” I heard Bella call me. I looked over, and she was walking in the kitchen. I shoved another bite of cake down my throat, and took a large gulp of milk.

“Yeah, Bells?” I said, and she sat down on the bar stool next to me, propping her arms up on the island.

“Listen, I know this is awkward, but, obviously I have to address this,” she said, giving me a sheepish look.

“Ummm…?” I looked at her and she took in a deep breath and didn’t exhale.

“This is really awkward… and I know how my dad felt now. Anyway, I know that once you guys get married that you’ll be going on your honeymoon, and that you’re going to engage in–”

I cut her off. “Whoa, whoa! Bella!” I exclaimed, my face heating up.

“I know, I know! I’m sorry! But I have to make sure, you know…it’ll be her first time, and I just want you to be really careful.” She rushed the words out, and I rolled my eyes. Typical.

“Oh yeah, Bells. I’m going to completely rush it, and hurt her. Of course, that’s what I’ll do!” I said sarcastically, chewing another bite of cake.

“I’m sorry! I just…she’s my baby girl, and I know what both of you are going through with your hormones, trust me. But, it will be painful, and I just want to do my best to protect her,” Bella half-whispered, pleading at me with her eyes.

“I get it. I want it, but at the same time I’d hate to hurt her,” I told Bella, mentally wincing at the thought. Bella sighed.

“On the bright side, Carlisle said that with her half-vampire genes, it won’t be nearly as painful as it is for humans, so it won’t be as bad as you think it’ll be. I know you’ve been waiting for this, and it’s been hard to restrain completely. Anyway, thanks for hearing me out, Jake. You’re still my best friend, and always will be,” she said, tilting her head to the side, smiling at me. I leaned over and hugged her rock-like body.

“You’ll always be my best friend, too. Thanks for being so understanding about this situation.” I picked up another chink of cake and Bella put her finger in the icing and licked it off, making a disgusted face.

“You wouldn’t believe how awful such amazing food tastes to me now,” she said, standing up. I laughed, and she left after giving me a wink.

I felt a lot better after; I had really been worried about Ness’ and my honeymoon. Considering this would be our first time, and Nessie’s still a virgin, it’s only common sense that for her it could hurt like hell. But apparently she’ll experience a lot less pain than a ‘normal’ human, so I won’t hurt my angel too much. That thought comforted me. I’m sure Nessie and I will make love on our honeymoon, like any couple would, but I’m just hoping that she’s ready. She acts like it, but what if she’s not?

Regardless, I can’t back out. So if she’s not ready, hell, we’ll have a honeymoon playing Pictionary. If that’s what she wants, then I’ll be perfectly fine with it.

I’ve already had a talk with Edward, that was similar to the one I had with Bella. Of course, he wants me to just fall off the face of the planet, but he also knows that won’t happen. He just wanted to make sure I knew to take care of his little girl, and I made it clear that I would.

Alice and Ness stayed up there in Alice’s studio until dinner and when they came down, Ness told me she overheard me and Bella talking.

“I’m so embarrassed! Obviously I can make my own decisions and I can take care of myself!” She exclaimed, taking a bite of practically raw steak. I laughed.

“Don’t worry, me and your mom are ‘BFFs’ or whatever they’re called. She just wants to protect you, sweetheart.”

Ness rolled her eyes, and chuckled “Are you trying to text-talk? ‘LOL’! That’s besides the point though. I know she just wants what’s best for me, but it’s still really humiliating,” she groaned, and I couldn’t help but laugh. Technology is obviously moving too fast for me.

“I love you,” I said, and Ness smiled, her crooked, luminous smile.

“I love you, too,” she replied warmly, then sealed it with a kiss that tasted like raw steak.

After I left for the night, Ness went back up with Alice – to put the finishing touches on the wedding dress, I’m sure.

This is probably the last time I write in here, unmarried. I can’t believe that this is all happening, and so fast. Each second I’m getting more and more excited and somehow falling more and more in love.

I slept soundly last night, for the first time in a while. And now, I’m leaving to go patrol. Doubles today, to make up for my honeymoon. Thanks for listening, and I can’t wait to tell you about the wedding.

- Jacob

We’ve made it! The wedding is almost here! AH! At the end of the wedding entry, I’ll have a bajillion links to show the outfits, settings, playlist, etc. Thanks for sticking with Jake and Ness! MUAH! xoxo

-Meagan

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(Jacob’s Diary) Plans

Dear Diary,

You know when you smile so much, that your cheeks hurt?

Well, that’s a normal thing for me now. Alice had jumped into planning the wedding the day after the deal was sealed.

All the women have just been giggling nonstop; talking about flowers, and fabrics, stuff like that. I see Ness the same amount as I did before, but it’s never alone. Alice is following her around like a puppy, Esme is always running around with her plan book and Bella is always discussing things with the three of them. I don’t mind, I want this wedding to be perfect as much as they do. I just miss our little alone time to cuddle, and do other romantic stuff.

Ness and I chose the color theme yesterday, and a few other things to go along with it.

“What do you want the colors to be?” Alice asked, sitting at the dining room table, professionally writing down details.

Ness looked thoughtful for a minute, then looked at me.

“Whatever you want is great,” I told her, and she nodded.

“How do you think gold a black would work, Ali?” She asked, and Alice grinned.

“It will be adorable,” Alice answered, writing down about three paragraphs in ten seconds.

“Ok, this makes picking the dress easier. This is great! This narrows everything down!” Renesmee exclaimed, jumping up then running up the stairs in a dash.

“Esme! We have some things to go over!” She yelled in the distance, and I rolled my eyes.

Honestly, if this were my choice, we would just have a wedding that would take a day to plan, half a day to set up. But, when you live in a house with Alice  you would be considered Satan’s offspring if you were to commit such a crime.

So, I’m going to take the safe route and go with a bigger wedding.

“I feel so anxious,” Ness said, looking at me. I pushed a strand of hair out of her eyes and smiled.

“It’ll be amazing,” I promised, locking my eyes on hers. She blushed.

“I know. But, what if I trip on my way down the aisle or something?” She asked, her eyes wide. I laughed at that thought.

“Well, it would make the wedding more memorable,” I said, and she grinned then looked down at the ground shyly.

“I love you,” Ness replied, laughin. I kissed her forehead gently.

“Psssht, I love you more,” I teased… which caused her to roll her eyes and suck in a deep breath, letting out a loud sigh.

“Have you been thinking about where the honeymoon will be?” She asked hesitantly, a gleam in her eye. I took a shuddery breath.

“Well…would you want it to be near the beach, or somewhere else?” I asked and she briefly pondered over it.

“Well, I actually want to go to the mountains…”

“Snowy mountains, or rocky mountains?”

“Oooh! I know! Let’s go to Aspen!” She replied, clapping her hands together once.

“Okay then, snowy mountains,” I agreed, grinning. As long as Ness is happy, I’m happy – so it really didn’t matter to me.

“Esme said they have a log cabin there. We could stay there!”

“Sounds perfect. Maybe I’ll finally learn to snowboard,” I said, and more little pieces fell into place, making up the masterpiece that will be our wedding.

“Alice said she has a ton of dresses for me to try on tomorrow,” Ness said, half groaning.

“I thought you liked trying on clothes?” I asked, and Ness nodded hesitantly.

“I do, but when Alice uses the term ‘ton,’ that implies way more than our definition. So, all day I’ll be trying on dresses, and after a while, trying on clothes gets frustrating and tiring.” Ness took a deep breath after her long explanation. I furrowed my eyebrows not really knowing what to say.

“But what if you found the right dress within the first five?” I suggested.

Ness took in a deep breath before answering. “With Alice, no matter how right it is, she’ll suggest to try them all on regardless, just to make sure.”

“Well, when you find the perfect one, it’ll all be worth it,” I reassured her, and she did a crooked smile that was so much like Edward’s.

“You always know the right thing to say,” she said moving closer to me, intertwining our fingers.

I lifted our hands, and kissed the back of her hand, before she mimicked my actions, placing thoughts of our love in my mind. She’s been doing this a lot lately, and it makes me happy to know she thinks the same way about me.

It helps me realize that all this is really happening. It all feels so surreal, and I’m expecting to wake up from this dream. But, I don’t. Because this is all true, and I’m actually marrying Renesmee. Me and Bella were telling her about everything before she was born. The newborn fight and me and Edward’s territorial arguments. Ness couldn’t believe that me and Bella were sorta together. It’s harder for me to remember those times because even though I loved Bella, comparing it to my love for Ness is nothing. She always outshines everything, everyone.

I might not have the powers to show her with my thoughts, but I can spend every day in the future showing her with actions and words.

I remember our first kiss, and how it felt, but even now, the magic I felt then is still in every kiss we share. Before I imprinted on her, I never realized the power of it; the magic in the blessing of imprinting on someone. I used to think it was a curse because I didn’t imprint on Bella, and I thought I really loved her. I never knew true love until I had set eyes on Renesmee.

And now, I’m marrying her. I can call myself her husband in a matter of weeks. I can make breakfast in bed for her, be around her all the time, call her my wife.

My excitement is so hard to keep from overflowing half the time, but I keep it under control, not wanting to risk looking sissy in from of the guys. Especially Emmett; I’d never hear the end of it.

Alice came back with Esme a few minutes later and discussed the reception for the rest of the night. I left at around eleven remembering I had patrol at seven the next morning.

“Bye, sweetheart,” I said to Ness, giving her a lengthy kiss.

“Bye, Fiancée,” she said, kissing me again. I grinned, and waved bye to Alice and Esme on my way out.

I walked home in the cool air of March. The wedding would be in May, so it’ll be nice and warm. It’ll be perfect.

When I got home, I made six corn dogs and while they were in the microwave, I went into my room to change into some pajamas. I kept thinking about how much more relaxed I am now, since proposing and everything’s out of the way. I pulled on my white t-shirt, and some Family Guy pajama bottoms then went to go get my corndogs. When I finished, I called my dad and told him how the planning was going, discussed the dates, and talked about other stuff for a little while. I was glad we talked. I miss my dad, and he’s another reason I’m excited for the wedding, since he’ll be visiting down here again.

Though yesterday wasn’t filled with raging vampires, it was still pretty eventful in my opinion. When I marry Renesmee, everything will be perfect and life couldn’t be better right now. This girly book really has come in handy  because I’ve documented everything from the beginning, to now. It really has been worth writing in here. Thanks for listening, diary. But for now, I have to go and patrol.

- Jacob

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(Jacob’s Diary) Proposal

Dear Diary,

I have never been more nervous in my entire life than I was earlier today.

Today was the day of the ‘date’ I planned. My dad left yesterday, leaving me my mother’s ring and a “good luck.”

Alice had went to make the finishing touches on the setup, and I was ironing my pants…again. Ness was at the Cullens’ house, and in two hours I was going to pick her up. I was discussing my plans with Bella and Edward while ironing, and Edward of course scowled the whole conversation. He’s so protective.

“Awww! Jake! I never knew you could be so romantic!” Bella giggled, clapping her hands. Edward rolled his eyes.

“Well, she’s worth it,” I said, directing my comment at Edward. He shrugged and I grinned widely.

“Um, well, me and Edward ought to go home and clean our room,” Bella said, breaking the awkward silence, and winking at Edward.

I swallowed the bile that rose in the back of my throat and my face scrunched up.

“Go, get out of my house, you pervy leeches,” I said, shivering in mock disgust. They both grinned and walked out of my front door. I turned my iron off, and grabbed my pants before walking into my bathroom, shaking my head. They’re so damn weird.

I paced back and forth in my bathroom, nervously running my hands through my hair. Everything was coming so fast, and every breath I took, made my body tense up. I’ve never been this nervous before.

I realized how much I was sweating so I took a damp washcloth to my face, but I realized that I might as well take a shower. I don’t want to propose to the love of my life with stinky pits. I hopped into the steaming hot shower, hoping it would ease my muscles a little.

When I first stepped in I hissed at the scalding water hitting my already too hot skin, but then relaxed into the misty spray. Another reason why I love Esme. When she remodels houses, she puts in these real expensive shower-heads that spray from all different angles and it hits all the stressed muscles. It feels nice after patrolling, and all this added on stress has tensed me up. Ah.

I spent about an hour in the shower, just standing there rehearsing what I would say. I also just sat there and tried to relax a bit.

In the end, my muscles were relaxed, but I wasn’t.

I got out and dried off with a fluffy towel that was hanging on the towel rack. I took a deep breath. Aw, hell. I’m really doing this.

I shrugged my shoulders,  telling my self to get a grip before pulling on my white t-shirt that I was going to wear under my dress shirt, and the black jeans that I was wearing. Alice told me to style my hair and, hell, I listened to her opinion. I got a glob of hair gel and ran it through my hair making it acceptable. I looked at myself in the mirror from all different angles to make sure there wasn’t a hair out of place.

Satisfied, I pulled out my shaving cream and razor and I started shaving my face, making sure it was soft and smooth. When I finished, I went and drank a glass of hot chocolate. What can I say? I need all the comfort I can get at a time like this. I gulped it down and then picked out the little marshmallows and ate them. I felt a little better after that. I had about twenty minutes until I had to pick Nessie up, so I put my cup in the sink then walked back into my bathroom.

Grabbing my shirt off the hanger, I brushed it off to make sure it was wrinkle and lint free. When I saw that it was, I pushed my arms through the arm holes and buttoned it up. Alice told me not to tuck it or it would look too formal. I decided once again to follow her advice. I made sure it fell right and I was happy with the outfit choice.

It was a tight white dress shirt that fell right at the top of my fitted black jeans, and I was going to wear my favorite white and black Nikes. When I tied the laces, I stood up and adjusted my clothes then brushed around my hair once to make sure it looked okay. I took another deep breath and walked out of the bathroom then out of my door that leads to my garage.

When I got in my car, I breathed slowly and popped all my knuckles before even starting the car.

I pulled smoothly out of my garage then drove the few seconds to the Cullens’ house. I got out almost robotically and blinked a few times before I knocked timidly. Bella opened the door, grinning manically. I nodded at her and she let me in.

“She’ll be down in just a minute, Jake,” Bella said, clapping her hands. I sat on the couch and waited for a few minutes. When I looked up at the stairs, Ness was walking down them. My jaw unhinged and the breath in my lungs came out in a wheezy gasp. Her bronze hair was pulled up in an up-do and several pieces fell to frame her face in curly tendrils. The other curls made an elaborate bun thing. She was wearing minimal makeup but her eyes were huge and brown with excitement, fringed with beautiful black lashes and her pale skin glowed softly.

She was wearing a deep forest green dress that fell right at her knees and was fitted all the way to her hips flowing outward from there, showing of her soft curves and hourglass figure. It was a sweet heart neckline and she wore the butterfly necklace I gave her on her third birthday that had an emerald in the center of the wooden butterfly. She wore green gladiator sandals with a dark green ribbon that came around her ankle and tied in a bow. She was so beautiful.

I stood up immediately, clearing my throat and nervously walking towards her.

“Renesmee…you look so beautiful,” I whispered, and she blushed deeply.

“So do you,” she said, and then turned an even brighter red. Bella went into the other room, trying to give us some sort of privacy, I guess.

“I mean, handsome,” she rushed out, shaking her head. I laughed, feeling some of the nervousness drain out. Being nervous around her is impossible.

“Shall we?” I asked in a fake English accent, holding my arm out to her. She giggled.

“We shall,” she giggled, and looped her arm in mine as we walked out to my car. I let her in and ran to my side before starting the car.

The whole ride there Ness sang along with the radio, her voice so much more angelic than the person singing the song.

When we got there, I let her out and gently took her hand.

“The lake?” She asked curiously.

“It’s the closest I could get to a beach,” I said, and she kissed my cheek.

“You’re so sweet,” She replied with angelic smile, and I blushed like the nerd I am.

“Oh my gosh! This is beautiful!” She exclaimed when the table that me and Alice set up came into view. It had candles and two plates of fettuccine alfredo and a side of caesar salad sitting delicately in the middle. She skipped over to it and I pulled out her chair for her and she sat down before I pushed her in, causing her to giggle. Once I took my seat, we started eating the food that Alice prepared and I laughed when Ness finished before I did. She blushed. Guess she was hungry.

“Sorry, but when you give me my favorite food, I’m going to eat it,” she said giggling and I nodded, my mind on other things.

“I, of all people should understand,” I said, and she laughed her pretty chiming laugh.

“So, do you want to take a walk on the beach?” I asked, a trickle of nervousness seeping in my stomach. She grinned.

“Yes! Just let me take off these sandals,” she answered, untying the little bows and slipping them off to show her small and delicate feet, perfectly manicured.

Ness walked over to me and I took her soft hand in mine before we started slowly walking along the shore line. Alice said that she would sit the ring about sixty yards away from the table, so I wrapped my arm around her shoulder and slowed the pace a bit.

“Oh, the sunset is so pretty,” she acknowledged softly, and I nodded.

“Yeah, I picked a good day for this,” I said, and she kissed my cheek again.

“This has been so sweet. I love you so much,” she breathed, and I looked nervously down at the sand. I saw the pink clam that Alice showed me. It was sitting right in the sand, so I bent and picked it up.

“Look at this,” I said, handing it to Ness. She smiled.

“Oh! It’s a little clam, let’s see if it’ll open,” she said smiling brilliantly and I went down on my knee, right when it popped open. She looked inside of it and then looked at me,her eyes filling up with tears. She kept looking at me, and then back at the ring.

“Jake…” she whispered, her voice hoarse.

“Renesmee Cullen, I love you so much. You’re my imprint, but you’re so much more than that. You are everything to me and I want you to be mine more than anything. You are my happiness and pretty much the only thing that keeps me sane… I just love you so much. Please, marry me. Let me be the one who gets to wake up next to you. Let me be the one to have the right to kiss you whenever I want to. Please let me be your husband.” I said, staring up at her, and she had her and over her mouth.

“Yes!” She whispered, grabbing my head and pulled me up to kiss her.

I was standing again and I was holding her small face in my hands, kissing her with so much passion that I had been holding in for so long.

“Oh my god. We’re getting married!” She squealed once we pulled away momentarily for air. She started spinning around in the sand and I grabbed her from behind and spun her up in the air.

“Thank you so much for saying yes,” I whispered in her ear. She turned around in my arms to face me.

“All of this to propose? I would’ve said yes if you took me to McDonalds!” She said, and I half rolled my eyes.

“You honestly think that I would take you there? Hell no! You’re worth so much more. I honestly wanted to do more, but I didn’t have enough time to prepare something more elaborate without you getting suspicious,” I mumbled, and she smiled.

“I love you, Jacob,” she said with certainty, kissing me softly on the lips. I pushed the ring on her finger and looked back up at her.

“I love you too,” I said, and she finally took a good look at the delicate gold ring that held a small assortment of diamonds.

“It was my mother’s,” I said, and more tears filled her eyes.

“Jake, oh my gosh. This is literally the best day of my life.” She stared directly in my eyes and I beamed.

“You don’t even know,” I told her, guiding her back to my car after grabbing her shoes and my keys. Alice would come and clean up.

Ness sighed softly when she climbed in my car, and I floated to my side, before getting in.

The ride back to her house was blissful. When we got back I opened her door and I walked her to the door of the Cullens’ house.

She wrapped her arms around my neck and kissed me softly, so delicately.

“Thank you for everything…I love you so much,” she whispered against my lips. I kissed her again softly, almost unable to let her go.

“I love you more,” I challenged, and she rolled her eyes before reluctantly disentangling her arms and softly walking in the door. I sighed, and slowly walked back to my car. I was in a trance, my mind was moving slowly and when I finally got home, I just had to write this down.

This event cannot go undocumented. I feel so happy, like I’m floating an inch above the ground. You ever get that feeling, where you’re so happy that nothing in the world matters and you just feel like you drank a whole damn bottle of happy juice? Well, for me, it’s multiplied by a million right now.

For now though, I’m going to go to bed. I’ll write again soon. Sweet dreams everyone – because I sure as hell know I’ll be having good dreams tonight.

- Jacob

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(Jacob’s Diary) The Ring

Dear Diary,

The other day I called my dad.

I haven’t seen him in a long time, but he caught a plane yesterday to come see me for my birthday. That was Ness’s present to me. It’ll be my twenty-third birthday, though I still look eighteen.

When I called him, I  told him everything about my plan to propose to Ness, and how I even got Edward’s permission to do so.

My dad kept telling me how proud he is of me.

So, I finally got up the damn nerve to ask him about my mom’s ring. When my mom died in the car crash, my dad packed up all of her stuff, and put it in the attic because it hurt him too bad to look at it. It hurt me, too. But, I wanted Nessie to have her ring. I wanted her ring to be special.

“Uh, dad?” I asked him.

“What is it, Jacob?” he asked, his voice pensive.

“Well, I wanted to know if maybe I could give, um, Ness, uh, mom’s ring?” I stuttered out, holding my breath for his reply.

“Now, Jacob-” I c

I cut him off, because I knew that tone of voice.“I completely understand if you don’t want to, I was just looking at all my options!” I said quickly.

“Jacob! Let me get a damn sentence out, please. I was going to say, I would be more than honored to let you give her that ring, and I know your mother would be too,” he said, and I sighed in relief.

“Thanks, dad. I can’t wait to see you tomorrow,” I told him. I could tell my dad was smiling.

“You too, son.” We said our goodbyes, and I felt jittery. My dad won’t move from La Push, but I want to spend as much time with him as possible because the werewolf gene didn’t burden him, he’s just like the age he is, and he’s sixty-one. My dad has a strong spirit, but nobody can live forever, except for those damn leeches.

I couldn’t wait for my dad to see Nessie again, too. She’s grown so much since she last saw him, three years ago. She was really excited too.

I’ve been patrolling extra so that I can have three days off to spend with my dad and Ness, and hell, I’ve never been more tired. I had also been working with Alice, because the day after my dad leaves I’m going to have a ‘date’ with Ness, and I’m going to propose to her.

I’ve planned to take her to the lake several miles outside of town. Ness loves the beach, and she really misses La Push, so this is the closest I can get to the beach. It still has waves, so that’s a plus, right?

Anyway, there I’ll have a fancy-shmancy dinner set up, a nice little table with candles and music, along with her favorite foods. Right there on the shore.

I’m going all out, too.

I’m gonna wear a dress shirt and tie, and I told Ness to wear a dress. She and Alice went shopping of course. After dinner, we would have a barefoot walk in the sand, hand in hand, all romantic and shit, and then I will propose.

I’m not a softie, but I’m excited to treat Nessie to all this, making her blush is always fun.

Besides, she deserves it, and I want to show her how much I love her. It’s not like I can touch her and flood all my lovey-dovey thoughts into her head like she can.

So, hopefully I’ll succeed.

Alice set it up so that nobody will be there to disturb us, and she went all freaky and assured me that it wouldn’t be windy enough to knock the table over or anything. She was going to put a small clam just above the shore line, with the ring inside of it. During our walk, I will pick it up, and open it then give it to her. While she’s looking at it, I’ll slide down to one knee, and give her this little speech about how much I want to marry her, etc.

It was going to be perfect, because I’m working hard to make damn sure of it.

With my nervousness, I already had picked my clothes out, almost a week early. Black jeans, white dress shirt, black tie. I ironed my jeans until they were almost completely flat, and my shirt was stiff and starched without a stain on it. And white shirts never stay stainless for long with me.

After I ate dinner, I showered and went to bed. I would’ve went to see Ness, but I texted her and told her I would see her when I went to go get my dad. I needed sleep.

That morning, I woke up around nine, ate some biscuits n’ gravy, and hopped in my car.

My trip to the airport was fast, but pretty dull. I finally got to the right place in the airport, and I waited for my dad to come off.

Sure enough, he was the last person to come out, and a wide grin spread from ear to ear on my face.

“Dad!” I yelled, lunging towards his wheelchair, and grabbing him in a huge hug.

“Hey, son! You’re looking good!” He said, grinning widely and patting me on the back.

We talked for another second or so and then I wheeled him over to grab his luggage. His carry-on was slung over his wheel chair so I grabbed his other suit case before wheeling him out of the fluorescent lighting of the airport.

When we got home, everyone welcomed and greeted him and it was all happy and perfect. Ness was thrilled to see Billy, and vise-versa. We all spent the rest of the day together, catching up. Doing family stuff. We’re finally a family.

Billy was staying in my spare bedroom, and we left around ten to go home. We spent some one on one time, and then we both went to bed, me worn out from lack of sleep and dad had dealing with a case of bad jetlag. We just ate breakfast, and were going to head down to the Cullens’ in a minute. I spent a lot of time with Ness, which only made me more anxious.

I can’t wait for her to be mine.

I love putting my arms around her, making her smile, making her blush and maybe one day, I’d like to have a child with her. I mean, she does get her period once a month, but Carlisle’s afraid that once she is full grown that her eggs will freeze just like everything else, making her immortal.

I don’t know much about that doctor stuff, but I would love to be a father.

I want to have a perfect little family with Ness.

I want to wake up to her, with her cute little bedhead, and morning breath.

I want to be able to spend every free second I have with her.

I remember when I was ‘in love’ with Bells and I never thought I could ever settle for anything less than her, but in my own world, I’m settling for more. I’m settling for the most perfect, beautiful thing that I can possibly settle for.

Renesmee Carlie Cullen is my imprint. My soulmate.

And I cannot wait to marry her.

I’ll talk to you later, I gotta go see Ness.

- Jacob

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(Jacob’s Diary) Pure Bliss

Dear Diary,

After getting Edward’s permission to propose, the change in my attitude was unbelievable. I felt lighter, and obviously relieved. I guess I didn’t realize how much it was stressing me out until it wasn’t a problem anymore.

Then again, there was always the fear that Ness will say no. I mean, she wants me, and our imprint makes the love between us strong, but there’s a tiny chance that for some reason she wouldn’t say yes.

Just thinking about it hurts.

Yesterday was Leah’s wedding which had me all pent up again, thinking about Ness’s decision and everything. All this wedding stuff isn’t good for my blood pressure and stress level.

I had to set my alarm for eight because I had to go to the Cullens’, get ready, and then help make sure everything looked perfect. Alice has rubbed off on Leah a lot…Leah now loves shopping, and sparkles, and now she’s a bit OCD. So now if something went wrong there would be two women freaking out all over the place – which wouldn’t be good, therefore, every damn person at the wedding has to pitch in before the ceremony, even though they’ve spent two weeks setting it up. I cannot understand chicks.

Anyways, I took my daily shower, and pulled on my tux in a hurry. I wanted to get there for some breakfast. I had enough time to finish afterwards. I shoved my feet in my fancy-pants leather shoes, and ducked under my door. The sky was clear, and had a few puffy clouds dotting the sky. Alice foresaw the weather of course, and that’s how they set the date.

The wedding is going to be beautiful, I know it will. I saw it yesterday, when they were still setting up. There was a small layer of snow dusting the ground; the sun had melted all of it off the trees. The flowers they chose would make it look almost unrealistically pretty.

Of course it won’t be the scenery I’ll be watching.

I swiftly walked the short distance up the road to the Cullens’ place, and softly opened the door.

Esme greeted me, and ushered me into the kitchen to make a plate. The rest of the pack were there, shoving their faces full of hash browns, and eggs. I piled my plate with the same, and got a glass of milk to drink. I ate fast, so that I could go help, and then get ready.

I was eager to see Ness, even though I saw her last night. The more I see her, the harder it is to not see her. And since I can’t see her until the wedding when she’s ready, I have to wait.

I slung my white jacket over a knob on the coat rack, and walked outside to the pond. Leah decided she wanted to go simple, though it only looked simple. The cost sure wasn’t simple, which is why it’s a good thing that her and Alice became good friends, because there is no way Leah would’ve afforded this otherwise.

There was a wrought iron arch at the place where the vows would be taken, with small white and turquoise flowers dotting the vines that intricately wrapped around it. There was a white aisle, and wrought iron chairs. The tips of grass, and a few wild flowers dotted the snow, and the sun gleamed against the glass pond, making a romantic and tranquil feel. There was a temporary bridge built across the pond that led to the reception area where there was a big white tent with sheer turquoise drapes framing it. The inside was extravagant, with ice sculptures, and a dance floor, and their huge and pricey wedding cake. It was stunning.

“Well, what do ya need help with?” I asked Louis, who was straightening the chairs for the guests in a flash.

“Um, you can go on and get ready. Honestly, I think Leah was overwhelmed thinking she would need help after all this planning,” he said smiling softly. I chuckled.

“Yeah, I agree. But, are you sure?” I asked, picking up a caterpillar off the white aisle. Louis laughed.

“Certainly. I’ll see you at the ceremony, Jacob,” he replied, then clapped me on the back. I smiled, and walked back up the hill and through the sliding back door of the Cullens’ house.

Sue and Charlie had arrived and I greeted them before grabbing my toiletries. Yeah, Charlie and Sue are together now. Everyone saw it coming, but it’s nice to know that they finally started dating. Charlie needed someone, and so did Sue. They’re great together.

Climbing up the stairs, I went down the hallway to the bathroom. I would go to Edward’s room or something, but I didn’t know when a girl would pop out of one of the rooms and freak out because she wasn’t ready. So, I was using the bathroom on the opposite hall. Of course it worked; this bathroom was as big as my bedroom from when I lived in La Push! I sat my stuff down, and I grabbed my hair gel.

I don’t normally use gel, but it’s a wedding so I decided why not give it a try? I put a little glob on my fingertips and ran my hands through my hair quickly, sculpting it to a neat, but messy look. Ness likes my hair when its been styled. I keep it short nowadays, because I don’t really need Bella to care about the length of my hair, like I did before.

Ness’s opinion matters the most, and she likes it short. I pushed it a tad to the side, and inspected it. When I was satisfied, I pulled on the turquoise vest, and tucked the turquoise tie in it. Hey, at least it’s not pink. Leah decided on ties instead of bow ties (thank god), though I still don’t exactly like the white tux look. I pulled on my jacket, and looked over myself in the mirror.

I looked good.

Grinning, I brushed of my jacket, buttoned it, and gave myself a thumbs up. I don’t give a shit if it looked cheesy. Anyone this hot can be as cheesy as they want, dammit.

Ness is right, I can be conceited.

I walked out of the bathroom, and down the stairs to the living room. Esme was fixing Carlisle’s tie affectionately, though I’m sure he could have done it himself, it’s the thought that counts. Edward was playing some preppy little song on the piano, but smirked at me once he heard my thoughts. All the other guests were already seated outside and I went on out, considering the ceremony was in ten minutes.

I went through the back door and saw every seat filled and most of the groomsmen stood in a group talking until the wedding started. There was no flower girl, everyone was too old, but they did have white flower petals lining the aisle. Good enough.

I went over and talked to Embry for a few minutes and then the girls started coming outside. Leah was still inside but once I saw Ness, I didn’t seem to remember that I was at a wedding. She was in a turquoise silk dress with a halter top and a sweetheart neckline. It was tailored so that it hugged every single curve of her body and below the hips it fell, as if it were a waterfall. It was cut open at the leg so I could see the top of her right thigh. Her shoes were tall and pointy, but sexy as hell and made her legs look delicious.

Don’t think of me as a perv’, but her boobs looked amazing in that dress, and not to mention how her skin glowed lightly, the sunlight intensifying it. Her long hair fell in tight ringlets framing her face, and it was parted on the side with a white and turquoise flower barrette stuck in the side.

I had to close my mouth before I started drooling and Ness giggled softly before coming over and looping her arm with mine.

“You look so handsome,” she whispered, her breath tickling my ear. I shook my head, trying to think of something half way coherent to say.

“You look am-amazing,” I stuttered, running my hand down her bare back. Did I mention that in the back, the dress fell in a big V to the bottom of her lower back? Guess not. Well, it does. Gosh, I feel like a horny teenager, but I can’t help it! If you would have seen that dress, you would’ve done the same thing!

She rolled her eyes, but grinned, her long black lashes framing her light chocolate brown eyes. I clenched my jaw, trying to not think about how appealing Ness looked. I knew Edward could hear my thoughts, too, so I had to keep it cool.

I took a deep breath and wrapped my arm around her tightly. She leaned in and after a few seconds, the bridal march song thing started.

“Guess this is our cue,” Ness said. She looped her arm through mine again, and we got in line behind the rest of the couples. We were third to go, and there were seven couples to walk down the aisle. Seth and Emily went first, then Kim and Jared, then me and Ness. We walked down the aisle – left right, left right – and I separated from her reluctantly to go to my designated spot. The rest of the bridesmaids and groomsmen divided, and I saw Leah standing at the end of the aisle.

The look on her face was pure, glowing bliss. Her grin was a mild wide and she slowly walked down the aisle. Louis’ breath caught as he took her in. Her dress was very unlike her. It looked like a mermaid. It hugged her silhouette and right above the knee it fanned out to the floor. It was very pretty and so was a white ribbon in her short hair, with a turquoise flower in it.

When she made it to the end, their grins were so wide you would think they had just won the lottery. But, in the sense of imprinting, they really had. They held each others’ hands and said their vows, Leah choking back tears and Sue sobbing on Charlie’s shoulder. Once they kissed, everyone cheered and before I knew it we were crossing the bridge to get to the reception tent. Ness was leaning into my side, and Alice was skipping ahead to make sure everything was perfect before letting us in.

When we got in, there was techno music blaring and multicolored lights laminating the dance floor. I felt like I was in one of those night clubs of Jersey Shore. I swear, if a Guido popped out and started fist pumping, I wouldn’t have been surprised.

Ness tugged me on to the dance floor, swaying with the music and everyone was laughing and having a blast. Thankfully, nothing catastrophic happened and Leah had the best possible wedding she could have.

When it was over, Leah and Louis left to the airport; they were going to Spain where Louis is from. They were going to have a great honeymoon and I was glad that Leah would have some time off. Everyone scattered when the reception was over and I kissed Ness goodnight before going home. I was beat. I took a nice hot shower, got all of that sticky gel out of my hair and I climbed into bed. Now, I have to patrol. All these damn weddings making me have double patrols is starting to suck.

- Jacob

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(Jacob Black’s Diary) Permission

Dear Diary,

I was off of patrols yesterday, so of course I spent most of it with Ness. We went over to Leah’s house to rehearse places, and everything. Me and Ness would walk down the aisle and then separate and go to our places, yada, yada, yada.

It took about two hours to perfect everything; it was harder to do it because we were rehearsing in Leah’s backyard, not the pond behind the Cullens’ where the ceremony was going to be held. And, of course, we had to take extra time to explain it to Paul…it’s hard to get anything through his thick head.

When we finished, everyone ate some fried chicken, and then all scattered to go wherever the hell they felt like. Ness and I left, and I ended up having to drop her off at the mall where Alice was waiting. She didn’t want to go, since I was off patrol, but I still had tonight – and her and Alice had been planning this for a while.

So, Ness reluctantly left, but her face brightened when Alice started telling her about some D&G, or D&J sale. Whatever those over-priced designer’s call their ‘fashion lines’. The whole drive back to the Cullens’ house, Ness’s sweet pomegranate scent was still hanging in the air, making my mind slow down a bit. Taking a deep breath, I got out of the car, and went inside the Cullens’ mega mansion.

I’ve thought about it; I don’t want to wait until Ness’s next birthday. All this marriage stuff with Leah’s wedding, and me losing control in the car with Nessie made me realize that I want it sooner. I want to be tied to her in any way possible, and I want to be her husband so bad it’s weirding me out a bit. The bond that I feel with her…it’s so damn indescribable. I feel so many emotions with her. She makes me feel happy, sad, scared, sensitive, loved. It’s a whirlwind of feelings, and it’s pretty confusing.

When I walked in the Cullens’, I knew then that this would be the only time I would get to talk to Edward, without anyone overhearing. So, I walked in with confidence, though it was fake. On the inside, I was scared as hell. Do you know what it feels like, asking an overprotective vampire father to have his daughter’s hand in marriage? Yeah, pretty frigging scary.

I took three deep breaths, and walked in the house, trying not to fidget. Esme was cooking, and smiled at me from the kitchen before I found Edward sitting on the couch with Bella.

“Uh, hi, Edward.” I rushed the words out. Edward looked up, his brows furrowed in confusion, and I tried my best not to think about what I was going to ask him.

“Hello, Jacob. Is there anything you need?” he asked, clearly trying to dig around in my head. I nodded.

“I was wondering if we could, um, take a walk? So we can talk,” I said, my voice cracking at the end. Edward got a curious glint in his eye, and Bella was biting her lip, confused.

“Yes, of course,” he answered.  ”I’ll be back soon, love,” he told Bella, and stood up easily from the leather couch. I rocked back on my heels, and shoved my hands in the pockets of my jeans. Edward walked beside me to the door, and followed me outside.

Once we made it to the crisp air, I breathed deeply, and Edward watched me.

“What is it, Jacob?” he asked, sounding concerned. I bit the inside of my cheek, and looked at him, straight in the eyes.

“Well…I almost went too far with Ness the other day,” I said, and his eyes tightened the slightest.

“Yes, I actually heard her thoughts when I came back from hunting. But, you guys stopped yourselves, so it’s none of my business – and it’s not my place to punish either of you,” he said softly, and I nodded.

“Well, see, I had a plan. I was going to wait until her next birthday, but I’ve decided I want to do this sooner,” I said, and breathed through my nose, when the snow started falling again slowly. Edward waited for me to continue.

“I want to ask her to marry me.” The words tumbled out of my mouth jumbled and fast. Edward’s face turned to understanding, a glint of anger, and then acceptance.

“And, how soon are you planning on asking her, Jacob?” he asked, his voice impassive. I took another deep breath.

Well, I was thinking around March…I know how much Ness loves spring, and I was thinking the wedding could be in May…?” I said nervously. Edward nodded, and looked down for a minute.

“Well, Jacob, I don’t want my baby girl to grow up…but, she has, sooner than I would have liked, but there’s no stopping it. She’ll be matured soon enough, and I saw this coming. As hard as it is for me, I give you my permission to propose,” he said, looking back up and directly into my eyes. I nodded, and smiled.

“I love her so much, Edward. I promise you, I will never mess it up.” I over-pronounced each word, looking at Edward straight on.

“I know, Jacob. I can see it, I can hear it,” he admitted, pointing to his head. “But, if you ever do anything close to hurting her…you’ll be patrolling in a wheelchair.” I laughed. He joined in, and then clapped me on the back.

“You’re a good kid, Jacob. I’m glad that you imprinted on her…I mean, I find the whole process beautiful, and I know that the connection is so deep that I can trust you with her,” Edward added. The look on his face wasn’t happy, but at least it wasn’t angry. Relief flooded through me, and I smiled the whole walk back.

Once we were inside, Edward went to play the piano and I walked into the kitchen, relief still strongly radiating through me the whole time. I sniffed the air, and my grin grew even wider. Esme made some of her amazing beef stew. That stuff is so damn good, I can eat a whole pot of it.

On the counter I found a humongous container full of it and it had a little sticky note with my name on it, stuck on the top. I grabbed a coke, and a spoon and wolfed down half of the stew. I was gonna keep the rest for later.

I heard a car come up the drive and I knew it was Alice and Nessie, so I put my spoon in the sink and made my way to the garage to greet them. Esme was hanging a picture, so I hugged and kissed her cheek on the way to the door leading out to the six car garage connected to the house. She smiled at me, and I walked out to the garage. I stood off to the side, and the door started opening automatically. Alice’s purple Nissan 350z pulled in smoothly, and the engine turned off quietly.

I waited for Ness to get out, and she sprinted over to me, and jumped up on me, wrapping her arms around my neck and her legs around my waist.

“Hey, Jake!” she said, then kissed my cheek softly. I smiled at her.

“Alice? Did you give her one of those twenty dollar coffees again?” I asked, and Alice grinned then shook her head.

“Jake, I’m just excited to see you! I missed you,” Ness said, kissing me quickly, before jumping down.

“I missed you too, honey,” I said, stroking the side of her face slowly.

“We bought some great clothes, didn’t we Ali?” Ness said, turning to watch Alice closing the trunk of her car. She had about forty bags on her arms.

“Yes! Yes we did! I can’t believe I forgot all about the sale they were having at Jimmy Choos! Thankfully, all the good heels weren’t gone,” Alice sung, grinning mischievously, skipping back inside as if she wasn’t carrying an extra one hundred and fifty pounds. I rolled my eyes and Ness grabbed my hand.

“So, what did you do while I was gone?” Nessie asked, her eyes probing my face curiously.

“I hung out with your dad, and then ate a bucket of Esme’s awesome beef stew,” I said, proud of myself for such quick thinking.

“You hung out with my dad?” She asked, her face turning incredulous.

“Yeah, we watched some television and stuff,” I answered, fidgeting. Ness nodded, but still looked skeptical. Thankfully, she shrugged it off and we walked inside the house, hand in hand.

The rest of the day passed, and me and Ness watched movies, played games, and talked. I’ve never related to someone so well. I was glad I didn’t have patrols today, because I’ve learned that there is nowhere in the world that I would rather be than with Nessie. I’m feeling a lot more confident about the decision I made to propose earlier than I had planned. I love her. So much. And I don’t want to wait. I want to be the man called her husband. I want to make her breakfast in bed, and spend every second of the day with her. And now that Edward ‘approves’, I don’t feel scared about anything anymore.

I went home in a dreamy state, and smiled the whole time I took a shower. I’m pretty sure I slept the whole night with a huge grin on my face.

Well, I’m leaving now. I have patrol in about two hours, and I want to spend some more time with my future wife.

- Jacob

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Losing Control

Dear Diary,

Ness and I have gotten closer these past few days. Double patrols are over now that Jared’s back, and I spend almost every second with her. The whole family is scattered at the moment. Esme and Alice are helping Leah plan her wedding. Carlisle is working doubles, helping in the cancer ward, using chemicals and crap. I think he’s working with a group of scientists, trying to experiment on finding a cure. That damn doctor is gonna cure every disease one day.

Edward and Bella spend a lot of time just hanging around wherever, and Rosalie and Emmett went on their millionth honeymoon.

So I guess you can say it’s pretty quiet around here. The group of nomads left, leaving us with no problems. I’m not trying to jinx myself, but I’m going to say that it’s almost normal. It’s almost refreshing to know that a group of crazy newborn vampires are trying to kill us, or crazy old ones at that. It’s relaxed around here. Of course Alice is on watch, and we still patrol, because we’ve learned to never let our guard down.

The New Year started two days ago, but the snow doesn’t show any sign of stopping. I don’t mind it, but I do miss the sun. Not that I saw it much in the first place, considering I lived my whole life in La Push. Ness is enough light for me anyways.

Today I went over to Leah and Louis’s house with Ness, and I got fitted for a suit, while Ness got fitted for her dress. She was going to be a bridesmaid, because Leah chose Emily to be the maid of honor. After Leah imprinted, they got over the whole ‘you-stole-my-soulmate’ thing. I already have a couple of suits and tuxedos, but Leah decided to choose white and blue as her theme, so I needed another suit for her stinking wedding.

Don’t think of me as a softie, but I’m really happy for Leah. She never deserved to be so lonely and depressed, and now, she’s so much better. Happy.

Ness and I drove my Charger – yes a Charger – there. I gave my rabbit to Seth, because he needed a car, and Edward gave me the shell of a ‘78 Charger to rebuild. I spent weeks on it, and finished it in record time. I put in a V8 cylinder engine, and painted it bright red. It’s pretty damn awesome. I revved the engine the whole ride there, making Ness delightfully giggle, which made me keep doing it. Her peals of laughter softened when we walked up the small path to Leah’s ranch house.

Leah opened the door with a huge smile plastered on her face, she was flushed with happiness. The small smile on my face widened and she ushered Ness and I inside her warm house. The guys were getting their white suits tailored, and all the girls ran upstairs. I rolled my eyes and took my shoes off before I entered the open living room.

“Hey guys,” I said, patting Louis on the shoulder. Seth grinned, but then grimaced at Alice, who was prodding around on his jacket. Embry, Jared, Sam, and Paul were the groomsmen, aside from me, and Seth was clearly the best man. So Alice worked away like a little midget fairy on hyper speed. I sat on the couch next to Jared, he already had his suit done, and I was going to be the last one getting mine done. Paul and Embry were eating, so it was pretty quiet.

Jared and I made small talk until Seth’s suit was done, and I left to go slip on my suit. It fit fine in my opinion, but Alice insists that it should fit like a glove. I quickly buttoned up the shirt, and draped the bright white jacket over my arm while making it to the living room.

Alice had me stand on a wooden circle thing, and stuck different colored pins in my suit, and poked me only once, when I moved. I got a slap on the back of the head and she scolded me, telling me not to move or she would drain all the disgusting blood out of my veins, or something like that. I just rolled my eyes at her, and she giggled, before putting the last pin in.

“Okay! Now, go take it off, but be careful not to misplace any of the pins!” She said, her voice tinkling as I walked in the bathroom to take off my now tight fitting suit.

Once I took it off, I walked out of the bathroom, and saw Ness waiting for me.

“Hey there, handsome,” she said, pulling me into a chaste kiss. I grinned at her.

“Does the dress fit?” I asked, and she nodded.

“Yeah, it’s the prettiest color blue. I love it,” she said, and I smiled.

“It’s the same color of the tie I have to wear. It is a pretty blue,” I told her, and we walked in the kitchen. Leah was sitting at the table with everyone else, eating something.

“Hey guys, we’re gonna head out. We’ll be over tomorrow and go over all the other stuff,” I said, and everyone said bye.

Leah got up and hugged me, whispering thanks in my ear. I shrugged them off, kissing her on the cheek, and grabbing Ness’s hand.

She followed me out the door and into the snow, and out to my car. We both got in, and I turned the heat on high, for the sake of Nessie.

Of course, that only made her sweet pomegranate scent circle around me, making my senses dull a fraction.

“Well, the indoor pool is finally finished,” Renesmee said. I clenched the steering wheel. I’ve seen Ness in a bathing suit, and the mental image is enough to make me drive off the road.

“Really?” I asked tightly.

“Yeah, mom said that she’d let me put bubbles in the Jacuzzi, to make it look cool,” she answered excitedly, and my eyelids drooped. Ness in a bathing suit, wet, with bubbles?

I took a deep breath, and forced a smile.

“That’s cool,” I said, trying to regulate my breathing.

“Yeah, and Victoria’s Secret had a sale on bathing suits, so mom let me buy, like twenty.” By that time I was close to breaking the steering wheel. I pulled the car over so quickly that the tires squealed.

“What are you-” I leaped over the center console, and crushed my mouth against Ness’s soft lips, and sucked her bottom lip into my mouth. All the blood was rushing from my head and into the lower regions of my body, and I was using all I had to keep a feral growl from slipping out. Our tongues danced, and Nessie moaned, the vibrations making me lightheaded. I pulled her up, to where she was sitting in my lap in the passenger’s seat, and she was straddling me perfectly. I felt hot and cold, shivering from the warmth, before tangling my hands in her silky hair, pressing her mouth to mine with more force, and in the process I let out a small growl. Ness moaned louder, and put her hands under my shirt, caressing my stomach. Our lips were molded together, growls shaking from me uncontrollably, and Ness was breathing hot into my mouth. Her scent was everywhere, taunting and teasing me. Too soon, she pulled away.

“Jake,” she breathed, looking at me with her pupils dilated.

“If you were thinking straight, you would stop this from going too far. But, you aren’t, so I have to, unfortunately. I want this more than you, but you wouldn’t want this to happen in the back of your car,” she said, frowning.

I blinked a few times, and took two deep breaths.

“Well, there’s no way in hell you can want this more than me, but you’re right,” I concluded, with a nod while trying to gather my thoughts.

“That was pretty hot though,” she said giggling. I laughed.

“I agree,” I told her, kissing her forehead. The heat was still on full blast, so I turned it down, feeling that it was uncomfortably hot. I climbed back into the driver’s seat, and shifted the gear from park, and started driving back down the slippery streets. Ness hummed with the song on the radio, and it didn’t seem any different from the way it was ten minutes ago.

This was going to be harder than I thought, keeping from completely blowing the plan I have away.

I kept mentally bullying myself the whole ride back, and only stopped when I walked her inside with a small kiss. She hugged me tightly, and went inside before I drove back to my house.

I took a cold shower, hoping to clear my thoughts, and now I’m here, at my desk, writing in my diary. I can say that things with me and Ness are just going to get harder, considering the thick sexual tension that constantly bugs both of us. But, my conscious will hopefully make me smart enough to make sure it happens the right way…not in my car.

Well, I’m really hungry, so I think I’m going to go make me some steak. Later,

- Jacob

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